MY BELOVED..

 We were introduced by a common friend 35 years ago.  A rather short acquaintance brought us to tie the knot a few months later.

Should I say that I had no strong feelings towards him then.. but who can tell what Allah has in store for us..

"Not my type of guy"...not the height, not the cut.. not everything that attracted me to a guy that he had.. not from the usual circle of people that I was used to.. 

What is the most important thing is that my father agreed to this marriage.. alhamdulillah.. Bapak's consent meant Allah's consent too..

Over the years he won my whole heart.. I have grown so attached to him.. he was my best friend.. together we built one big happy family.. six boys and a girl.. 

After almost three years without him, I still think of the beautiful times we had together.. weeping.. missing him. It is very difficult to write about him now with my tears flowing uncontrollably ..

My heart aches every time I think about him.. but I always try to see the "good" things that come out from this sad situation.. I get to recite Yaasin twice a day for him and now I can recite it by heart.

I become a very patient person and never take any day fore granted for I realised that life is too short and precious..

Honey.. I pray that Allah will forgive you, bless you and keep you safe.. please wait for me.

I can't say enough but I will always love you and you occupy a very special space in my heart..